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I was recently chatting with an old friend because she was once again pulled back into the depression that comes along with a bad break up.  Simply put, she is unable to let go of her ex, even though from a third party point of view, this guy is pretty highly ranked in the world of douchebags.  She spoke with me probably because not many people are awake at 2am…and possibly because she watched me go through the same thing a while back.  Having gotten past it, you look back and you wonder why you even bothered wasting time on such a person…and why you wasted the effort in being sad.   People ask you if you regret having spent so many years with this one person who didn’t treasure you… and when you can honestly say Yeah, I do….then you know 1) you’re definitely over it and 2) you must’ve been drugged. Just kidding 😛

But to be frank, I do regret having wasted my time and my tears….but on the bright side, it did teach me that it’s the little things in life that makes life life.  When the person you trust most leaves you behind, then every day is a struggle until you find your feet. For me, it opened my eyes to all the things worth living for…and how little right I have to cry these tears where there are millions of little kids out there who actually have nothing and still they live.  So I smile and make my life one that is worth living.

When I told my friend that, she told me that I was stronger than she is.  Which…I don’t think it’s true.  I’m just lazier…and being lazy, I don’t want to waste effort on something totally not worth my time. Namely being sad. It takes effort, you know…laughing is much easier.

I found this video today (Because of my recently gained obsession on 2PM). Nichkhun’s got it pretty much the way I see it…

Struggles make my heart beat, because I know they make me stronger.  That’s why I’ll never give up, that’s why I’m not afraid to fail.  Today I face another obstacle…and so my heart starts beating….again.

…are just another part of life.


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March 20, 2012 · 6:58 am

If you don’t want to get hurt…

good luck with that one.  If anyone’s figured out how to live a full life and not get hurt, please do let me know.

Today’s the last day of August.  It’s been a summer filled to the brim with adventures and firsts – I’m trying very hard to live life.

Mexico was pretty much a week full of firsts: first time to Mexico, first time to go to the airport at 4am, first all nighter since BCIT, first beach, first bikini, first all inclusive, first HAMMOCK (oh loves!), first time running around in a tropical storm at 2am drunk out of my mind, first snorkel, first scuba, first CLIFF JUMP!, first cenote, first time at Chichen Itza (it’s a chicken?), first beach wedding! first whale shark, first Isle of Coco, first sunburn (!), first so many everything~

HK was actually quite adventurous too actually, which is strange because I go back on an annual basis.  It’s like taxes…I’ll be there. 😉  First time as maid of honour (Rita, I love you~), first wedding speech (ohmygad), first spa in HK, first time in SheungWan during a freak storm which flooded every freakin intersection, first time (x 6) to Elements and the Sky100 + Ritz Carlton, first time inside Peninsula, first time I met with Daniel, Tim, BenG and ChiChi in HK, first time I got along with the cat I don’t like….etc.  Happy I got to share my birthday with my Gramma!  and Ta!! Even though these yearly trips are now pretty much a must, it’s always felt like I’m going home.  I’m thankful that I can feel that way…thankful of all the love that is still there waiting for me.

Oh…hit my first, and prabably last, double this summer for softball.
First time I’ve gone to watch baseball…first time I’ve enjoyed baseball. I’m in denial…caught my dad watching MLB the other day…he raised his eyebrow at me when I walked by and laughed at me. -_-”

First time I’ve gotten so completely hooked on Korean dramas. O_o sighs.

But as adventurous and first time worthy as summer 2011 was for me…. underneath it all, I just wished I could’ve been there for you…. miss you lots, baby girl.  Hope you’re doing ok.

And as September closes in, Greenday once again rolls through my mind:  Wake me up when September ends.

13 days.  In 13 days it’d be 10 years. Grampa, I miss your smile.

…Don’t fall in love.

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Went to watch the final game of the season for Daniel and his team today (well yesterday.)….it was really muggy…and I was for some reason not well from a night of migrating and drinking.  Albeit the really weak G&T’s at Society.  I never knew someone could get something so simple so wrong.

Either way….the Stealers won the final, so they are league champions! Yay! It was an exciting game, actually.  The other team was really good, especially the pitcher.  But as I said, Dan’s team was better 😉  So excited I was stressed out lol.  Especially with the two 3rd base steals…one attempt and fail, one successful….that the guys did. O_O!!! My heart~!  Good hangover cure lol.

So…now what do I do to entertain myself on sundays? Hrms.

I’m still in denial of the fact that I find baseball entertaining. The last time I found baseball entertaining was when the Jays won the world series.  Which was … what 1993? lol.

…yay for winning the finals!!!! instead of champagne, I’m good with soju! ganbae~

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Let’s love like we’ve never been hurt before

Currently watching My Name is Kim Sam Soon.

The only reason I started watching was because Hyun Bin was in it and he won some awards for his role….so I figure it can’t be that bad.  It’s a little loud and annoying some times for my taste.  I prefer my characters to talk softly most of the time. lol.  But that’s the good thing about non-tv drama watching…FF it all the annoying parts 😉 and all the characters I don’t want to see.

This one is about HyunBin as a rich restaurant owner….of course.  Can that face be anything less than rich and almighty? And a wonderful girl who doesn’t fit into the category of cute, hot, beautiful, unique or anything like that.  They of course like ecah other and of course everyone in the world is somehow standing in their way.

Sometimes I feel like her….boring, chubby, can’t be considered elegant really, doing my own thing on my own.  But she’s one heck of a character.  HyunBin’s character said to her that she’s attractive because she doesn’t realise how attractive she is. If only those kinds of things happen in real life. *sad smile*

Actually, I’d like to watch one where he’s the struggling to make ends meet guy.  I don’t think that series has been written yet.  We’ll have to wait for at least 2013 for his triumphant return from the SKorean Marine Corps in Dec 2012.

Tonight’s quote from the movie comes from a scene where the girl sees a billboard at the bus station that tells people to love like they’ve never been hurt before…to dance like no one’s watching…to sing like no one’s listening…to live today as if tomorrow is the end…

To be honest, I’d like to be like that too.  Pretend that I’ve never been hurt before, as I want to seriously love one more time. But since the ending has come like this, I’d really like to change the article.

“If you don’t want to get hurt, then don’t fall in love. “

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Boys Over Flowers – review

craps. i’m hooked onto this korean drama stuff. craps!

so, as mentioned previously, it all started with Boys Over Flowers.  I’ve never actually liked korean dramas before.  That’s because the only other Korean drama i had watched previous to this was Winter Sonata, ages ago.  I loved it, don’t get me wrong. The scenes, the story line (typical drama line but they do it so well!), Bae YongJun yums, and ohmigosh their CLOTHES! *dies*.

But honestly, I cried so hard from like the 3rd episode onwards….and then every time I hear the song, I think of the story and tear up? geebus. Cant’ do it man.

Then Boys Over Flowers came on tv while I was in Hong Kong, and I was hooked.  It was different…..something that will never happen in life, therefore it’s fun to imagine it.


Woobin - Jihoo - Jandi - Junpyo - Yijeong


In short, the story follows the 4 most eligible bachelors of S.Korea – 4 guys who’ve been best friends since kindergarten. They are the most eligible because they are the heirs to the powerhouses of Korea.  Woobin’s family on the surface owns some successful construction companies but is really an unground mafia leader; Yijeong’s family is famed in pottery and he’s supposedly a child prodigy in the art himself; Jihoo’s grandfather was S.Korea’s president (I assume this means that the family is well taken care of after) and owns cultural centres etc; and JunPyo’s family owns Shinwa…which owns pretty much everything else that the other guys don’t it seems.

The 4 most eligible bachelors, the 4 biggest on-the-surface douchebags in S.Korea.  Seriously.  They act as if the world was beneath them…which really, the way they were brought up…the rest of the world WAS beneath them.

Then enters Geum Jandi…the commoner.  Not even JUST a commoner…a lower class commoner.  Due to an unforeseen suicide attempt (uh bullies….those F4….douchebags) that she interrupts (serious….she interrupted it lol), she becomes part of this rich people world reluctantly.  And finds the cracks on the walls that each of the F4 guys built up over the years…and finds the human inside.

The story is based on a Japanese Manga…..and the thing I loved most about this series is that the 4 guys really do portray really comic characters…from their looks (hair styles, accessories etc) to the clothes (university students in 3 piece suits?! completely decked out in white?! BOW TIE!? hankies?! what?!) to their expressions…. they were such characters~

Anyway, the story is pretty much a love triangle between Jihoo, Jandi and Junpyo….with a side story for Yijeong and Jandi’s best friend Gaheul….and leaving poor Woobin all alone. The fortune teller tells of a soulmate and a guy who she’ll spend the rest of her life with….being two different people.  Aigoo….

The characters!

Woobin – the quiet one who’s always just in the back watching…and steps up when his brothers are in need.  Kim Jun was a natural at it, especially the scenes where Woobin breaks out into horrible English cuz it was “cool” lol. There are moments though….he reminded me of Mr Bean HAHAHAHAHA

Yijeong – the cute one, and he knows it. sweet smiles, bowties….he’s seriously like the cute younger brother in Japanese cartoons. Kim Bum’s dimples adds a magic touch.

Jihoo – the quiet one.  Jihoo captured my attention from the get go because he was the first to show he cares. He’s always there for her. That’s why I love Jihoo most.  Kim Hyun Joong plays the role beautifully.

Junpyo – the leader….the loud, annoying, immature, useless…one. I couldn’t stand him from the start…and still really don’t understand why Jandi would even look his way.  He’s spoiled, even by his friends.  Seems Jandi was the only one to not just give him everything he wants when he wants it.  The backstory shows why he is the way he is…and you feel sorry for the kid sometimes…but really, he’s just a big bully.

Jandi – my heroine. lol.  I wish I had the guts to stand up to the 4 most powerful kids in SKorea.  I mean…even the adults bowed to these kids man.  She was a character all on her own….everything I hope to be.  She’s caring, generally happy (especially when she has to show her face to people she cares about), strong, and determined.  She totally deserves to be with Jihoo.  But you know what they say…you don’t know what you’ve got….

Gaheul – Jandi’s best friend. Super cute…super innocent…I’d like her too if I was Yijeong. They make the cutest couple lol.

JaeKyung – a minor set back to Jandi and Junpyo’s relationship to nowhere…when he is arranged to be married to another rich family’s daughter.

But yeah, definately recommend this one.  Not too many loud annoying ladies yelling at each other.  Just one or two scenes that are unimportant and can be fast forwarded through 😉

Rating it the way I rate dramas:
Storyline: 9/10 – some parts were….huh?
Cloths: 9.5/10 – I’m a sucker for 3 piece suits and bowties. the 0.5 missing is because GuJunPyo has HORRIBLE tastes in clothes
Scenic: 10/10 – I now must go to Jeju Island…and New Caledonia~
Hotties: 9.5/10 – F4 is F4 for a reason.  the 0.5 again is for Junpyo’s style choices, or therelackof. His HAIR. yugh. But Kim Hyun Joong and Kim Bum more than makes up for it.
Teary moments: 2/10 – not too many. which is great!!!!

Overall: I think 9/10.  It’s a great escape.  Just don’t go hoping it’ll happen.

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never gone…never far…

went to the NKOTBSB concert part I in vancouver, and for 3 hours, i was 13 again. ❤

also had my very late birthday dinner with the mexican crew. oh riviera maya, how i miss you so.

cleaning room after one month of living out of a suitcase. i don’t know what to do with all this space.

and finally, dusting off my notebook and begin writing again.

what do i write? non-sense. daydreams onto paper.

but still. it’s a great way to escape reality, isn’t it?

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a gift.

i’ve always laughed and rolled my eyes when my colleagues and other branch managers comment on the fact that i’m always happy. so why not ask echo to do something, cuz she’ll do it…with a smile…

then i wondered if seeming happy all the time is a blessing or a curse for myself? cuz it seems to always be me who gets cheated out of something lol. cuz i’m happy anyway, right?

then i wondered if seeming happy all the time is a blessing or a curse for everyone else. beneath that smile, am i really smiling?

then last night, when i cracked open my can of coca cola…i saw something that made me realise…this happy, it’s really a gift, isn’t it? real or otherwise, to be able to put on a happy face and to spread the happy face…it’s a gift.

the can had said “Open Happiness”.
how many people can just open happiness?


in other news…i was watching a travel show that went into North Korea. crazy man. the whole show pretty much showed how n.korea is so…iono. i like how they lie to themselves. lol forget the rest of us in the world. but it really is interesting how they completely lie to themselves.   but the best part was when the guy was filming from his hotel room, and there were two groups of little kids in the courtyard…one group of little kids were collecting dried sticks so they could bring it home to start a fire for food…and the other group of kids were wearing new clothes and playing with new toy guns…the guide had said:

when i came in to north korea, they showed me the best that this country has to offer.  but when they told me that everyone is equal here, someone forgot to tell me that there are some who are more equal than others.

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