So if you know me, which you probably don’t, I really really believe in Karma. I try my hardest to collect the good kind of karma….but sometimes, karma just likes to kick me in the butt. I suppose that’s its way to keep me on my toes.
I’ve been fairly confused recently, to say the least. At first I thought it was just me being…me. Overthinking and over-analysing everything; which generally just leads to me stressing myself out some more.
As if life wasn’t stressful enough as is (audit dropped in for a visit. unofficial or otherwise, it’s more stressful than sleeping with a time bomb), I just function better when I’m ready to rip my own hair out I guess?
Found time somewhere in between to watch the last segment of Harry Potter. The movie was more than I had hoped for, because to be honest, I’ve been so disappointed with most of the HP movies that I didn’t expect much. But it was brilliant, and I pretty much teared up every 5 minutes started from scene one when they showed Harry Potter sitting beside Dobby’s grave. And definately when they did a scene showing Fred and George getting ready to fight and they asked each other if they’re alright. *sniffles* oh Feorge (or would it be Gred?). and SNAPE! *snuffles-sniff-bawls*. I remember reading the book, and Snape wasn’t as….gentle…about explaining things…and how he’d forced Harry to look him in the eye. It was an epiphany when I read the book. It just hit me in the gut, and then stabbed me a couple of times in the heart…sighs. Poor Snape. And I won’t ruin it for you, but Harry and Dumbledore actually had my favourite conversation in the book (Dumbledore has said something in pretty much every book that I’ve really loved lol)
“Tell me one last thing,” said Harry. “Is this real? Or has this been happening inside my head?”
“Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?”
It made my day. I live by that line, just in case you wonder why I’m strange sometimes.
I had asked before, whether you would just reach out and take what’s given to you, or try to attain something that’s pretty much unattainable?
I’ve chosen to reach…but for the unattainable. Why? Well…the title says it all. Since I am stupid, might as well enjoy the song and one of my fave BOF scenes. Sighs, JiHoo….